WHAT IF IT HAPPEN TO ME?

We go thru life so mundanely and so routinely. We read the papers, hear the gossips, watch the news. But somehow, it just remain as that. News.

Until one day, it hit home, and you finally realised that it could well likely happen to you. What will you do then? Are you strong enough to hold it together? Will I be strong enough? Stable enough? Just coz you've been thru one bad patch, doesn't mean you can't go thru another one. It's Allah way of testing you and me, all the humble servants of planet earth. But Allah shall only gives you what you deserves, what Allah knows we are capable of, even if we ourselves are not even 10% sure. It's Allah way to show us that Allah exist.

Today, I received the sad news that one of my new colleague's eldest son had passed on due to this illness called HFMD. It triggered something inside me. It scares me. It seems that it all went quite fast very unlike the suffering of a cancer patient level 4 would experience. Or their loved ones. I wished with all my might that this will not happen to me. I do not wished for anything remotely close to it, to happen to me. I am a romantic. A dreamer. And I have just been shaken up to reality. Oh gosh. Thinking positively, all I can come up with is that Allah is showing me something...telling me something. Life is short. Death is the only certainty in life.

inspiration

i was truly inspired after watching Muallaf just now hence i decided to draft out my one and only resolution for next year. A better me, for me.


everynight before i go to bed...

...i vow to be the best self that i know i am capable of being.

...i shall forgive everyone or anyone who may have hurt me.

...i shall let go any ill feelings towards anyone who may have hurt me in one way or another.

...i will go to sleep proclaiming that tommorow i am going be a better human being for myself and everyone around me than I was today.

insyallah.